Where is my spirit?


Life seems like an accordian to me. There are times where everything is spread out and breathing. Where there is music being made. And times where everything seems to crush together, making no sound. Today was one of the crushing days. I have so much on my mind. I have so much to do at school, so many meetings, computer malfunctions, deadlines, developing, moving, painting, cleaning, prepping, maintaining relationships…and so on.
Now, many of you know me as a hard-working, somewhat stubborn person. It seems strange then that there were a few times where I felt like giving up and…I don’t know…being someone else for awhile. Or seeking some escape. But where to? And who is to say that it would bring me any kind of comfort?

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 2 Corinthians 1:3-5

I know where I can escape. Back to that pier in my mind. Back to that place where songs and praises float up to God like incense. And he is pleased.

The priest shall take a handful of the fine flour and oil, together with all the incense, and burn this as a memorial portion on the altar, an offering made by fire, an aroma pleasing to the LORD. Leviticus 2:2

My need for God has been revealed to me today. My need for Him is profound and I am humbled as I struggle to seek Him in this darkness.