I find it interesting that the more serious of spiritual and life battles are often fought internally or in such a way that they are not public. I have been specifically considering families that have dealt with miscarriage or infertility. The only outward sign of this life trial is that the couple has no children, Read More
I saw a friend yesterday who was greatly pained by our recent miscarriage. I think she was shocked because, when she asked me how I was doing, I said, “All things considered, pretty good.” She continued by adding how sad she was for us and to keep trying and have hope… Then I said, “Honestly, Read More
Well, to answer everyone’s burning question. The man was not a prophet. Josh and I were absolutely floored awhile ago when we found out we were pregnant. Then, we realized the strangeness of it’s connection to the crazy prophet/flirt man when we were told the baby’s due date was early March. But, as is to Read More
Well, Relient K strikes again at completely capturing my heart with one of their songs. If you don’t have some good Relient K music, you gotta get some. Their songs are fun & punchy, but the lyrics are those of people encountering God. I’m amazed at how many times I’ve been struck down by one. Read More
One look at love and you may see it weaves a web over mystery, all ravelled threads can rend apart for hope has a place in the lover’s heart. Hope has a place in a lover’s heart. ~ Hope Has a Place, Enya I spoke earlier about fear and realizing the fears that bind me. Read More
Josh sent me this pic from my brother’s wedding. He said he liked it because I looked all cute and smiley. But it disturbed me. It’s a picture of me and my niece, Jenna. She’s obviously very wiggly. 🙂 It was awesome to go back to MN last weekend and see Nate tie the knot. Read More
I haven’t really been blogging lately because most of the things I want to talk about are things that aren’t really appropriate for a internet-published blog. I have all these weird thoughts on stuff like marriage, relationships w/ friends & coworkers, sex, pooping, fears, local events…all sorts of stuff that I can’t really find an Read More
my soul heaves up bearing a hole weakening my sight straightening my walk oh, my soul groans out, oh pleading for Grace please come! seek me out! i’m here in my womb that has become my grave the whole world withers on my hips the birth pangs arrive with no breath inside Lord, make me Read More
This blog has overtaken my journaling, so this entry is a bit more personal than usual. The thing I hate the most about my miscarriages is not the blood, the pain, the tears, or even the fact that I don’t have a child. Those things are bearable with a bit of godly perspective. The thing Read More